CD26, Cycle 7 - 7DPO (two 7s on Friday the 13th!)

Must be my lucky day! Cycle 7, 7DPO, and it's Friday the 13th! I love today. ;)

Another day without temping, which is totally cool by me. O's confirmed, so no need to stress about the rest.

One thing I absolutely hate is how hot my body gets during my LP. I tend to run low a lot of the time (as you can tell by my charts!), so even 0.5 degrees makes a huge difference. Like today, I was fanning myself off in awesome attorney-boss' office while we were discussing something*, and I had to pull my hair up and off my neck, it was so blasted hot.

It's probably 72 degrees in this office. :P

*What were we talking about? Kids! From private vs. public school to potty training to little girl clothes to languages and... I love that I can talk to him so openly about all that, haha. It makes me even more baby-crazy, but hey, not like I wasn't already, right?

Oh yeah, and I ran two baby girl names by DH, and he pretty much shot them both down. A friend from TCOYF suggested Sophie and Olivia, and they both sound awesome with the middle name I want (Ann) and our last name, so I ran them by DH.

I kinda like Sophie, but I already told you I didn't like Olivia.  I can tell you right now that I wouldn't agree to either for our child.  We'll come to this when we find out the gender of our first child, whenever the hell that ends up being > : (

Siiigh... I know, this is taking forever, and I'm frustrated, too. It feels like it, at least. Seven cycles down... we'll get really worried once 12 hits. But NGL, I'm already a little perturbed. :|

DH will have an SA sometime in August. He has a urology appointment set for 3 August, which is bad because that's my next fertile period... he can have his junk checked, but the SA itself may have to wait until I confirm O. Grr.

If that ends up being okay, then I guess... when 12 months comes along, we'll get my junk checked, too. I'm actually pretty afraid of that prospect, as it's a lot more invasive than "Here's a cup and a Playboy magazine, have at it". I don't want all those tests, but if we have to do it, then we have to do it.

Sadly, even if we did, the cause likely wouldn't be problems with ovulation itself (apparently, I ovulate just fine!) but with possibilities like blocked fallopian tubes, insufficient lining (I don't think that's a problem...), issues with my FSH levels, and who knows what else. A lot more going on for me than for DH, that's for sure.

I almost want to go to the midwife after 9 cycles if there's no success. Why drag it out any longer? DH's SA results will be in by then, we'll have been trying that long without protection, we're charting and timing intercourse well, and just... I'd rather know sooner than later. Really, I wanted to get checked at 6 months, but I want DH to get his spunk checked first. That's the easiest part. ;)

Honestly, when I started this blog, I didn't think I'd be adding "Cycle 7" to my list of categories. Hell, I didn't think I'd be adding even "Cycle 3". I was more hopeful than not, and each cycle that goes by, I just feel like our hopes are dashed and our patience is wearing thin. I know we're a couple of the lucky ones who haven't yet been trying for years, but I don't want to try years. I didn't even want to try for months. And now we're looking at possible infertility?

We're probably worrying too early about that. But really, how early is "too early"? When do we stop hoping and start worrying? At this point... I'm going with right-the-fuck-now. We're doing everything right, and yet we're still here.

... I'm done ranting. It got to be a lot more than I thought it'd be. Guess I'm more emotional about this than I thought (and DH is, too, for that matter). :(